I saw my mfm today and we had a growth u/s. He is measuring 33 weeks 5 days and is weighing in at 4 lbs 7 ounces(a month ago he was 3lbs 5 ounces). This all seems very average but he dropped on his weight curve from 40% to 26%. Ugh, I automatically start blaming myself because of the hyperemsis which isn’t helpful to anyone! She said she is not worried, at this stage there is still huge room for error in the measurements and that they will check it again in a month.

The second issue I brought up with her is a pain that I have been having for over two weeks in my upper abdomen. I asked my doctor about it last week and he said “oh, you are running out of room.” What sort of answer is that? I asked my mfm and she said right away gallbladder once she saw where the pain was. She thought it was weird I was still throwing up and said there is almost always some other explanation this far along. They are going to fax my OB orders on what she wants done and then we are going to go from there to see if it is my gallbladder and if its a stone, sludge, or if it is just irritated. Not that anything can be done this far along but it will still be nice to know what the pain is from exactly. I was told it is pretty common in pregnant women and as tactful as possible she said it was interesting my OB didn’t think to at least run some labs.

….or not. I now have pain in my upper right abdominal quadrant. Tender to the touch at times pain. Pain so intense after eating sometimes that I just don’t want to eat anymore. They think its because I am already running out of room and Jack is pushing on my stomach. It has been getting progressively worse for the past week but the OB totally blew me off yesterday. I called again today and they said well maybe its GERD but I am already on Nexium and taking Tums like a champ and its not helping so I am not buying it. I keep reading things about Gallbladder issues and that area but again they said just keep taking the Nexium and we don’t know what else to tell you. So what, am I just supposed to be in pain and not eat for the next 6 and a half weeks? FUCK. Not that I love eating now but at least the puking isn’t painful. This mother hurts, like tears in my eyes at lunch hurts. What did I eat you wonder…not even a half of a grilled chicken sandwich so its not like I pigged out on fatty food and then had the issue. I wake up in the middle of the night in pain. It’s just too much sometimes.

My fucking teeth are bothering me again and are probably going to fall out of my fucking head after I give birth. My esophagus is going to be shot to shit if it isn’t already and now I am in so much pain I don’t want to eat anything. My OB said he will see me again next Tuesday if the high risk doctor can’t give me more suggestions to try next Monday. I am so done! Sorry about all of the “fucks” I couldn’t contain myself.

How far along? 31 weeks 5 days
Total weight gain/loss: +4 pounds. Finally, a weight gain!
Maternity clothes? Most of my clothes are now maternity, although I still fit into most of my pre-pregnancy shirts and some of my “knock around” shorts.
Stretch marks? none
Sleep: Not great lately, if I wake up nauseous I am finding it harder and harder to fall back asleep.
Best moment this week: Pregnancy massage!
Movement: YES! He is very active early in the morning and again before I go to sleep.
Food cravings: Still no cravings:(
Gender: BOY
Labor Signs:none
What I miss: Being able to eat three meals a day without throwing up.
What I am looking forward to: Having this baby!

My appointment with my new mfm was on Tuesday and I can’t even begin to tell you how much I loved the whole practice. The u/s tech was wonderful, he is still measuring right on schedule AND we saw his practice breathing as soon as he got on the screen. I know they said it was still early last week and not to worry but it was still a relief seeing it. She did the whole BPP which I passed in addition to the growth u/s. My child has a huge noggin(although so do both DH and I) and weighs 3.5 lbs which is just fantastic considering how sick I continue to be.

We were then brought into a consultation room which had nice couches, a cafe table and relaxing music. The doctor comes in and the first thing he said was that he likes to think of his patients as his kids and wants everyone to feel like they are sitting around a kitchen table. He then says that LO and I are “disgustingly healthy” even with the hyperemesis and that he will see us back in a month but to call if I have any questions or concerns. He does not think that I need weekly BPPs/NSTs at all and has no issue seeing me the rest of the pregnancy instead of my now old high risk doctor(who amusingly enough he actually knows and said he can never get that man to crack a smile). He then hugged me and my mom on the way out and reminded me to call if I had any concerns. I would highly recommend this practice to anyone in South Jersey.

I feel 100% better about how Jack is doing now and I got some adorable pictures! I will upload them when I go back home this weekend.

My mfm suggested last week that I start getting weekly BPPs as it is hard to tell how my hyperemesis is affecting our LO. The standard procedure would be to do a NST first and if I fail that go to the BPP but since his practice is not large enough to do the testing themselves they just have your OB write orders to go right to the BPP at an outpatient center.

We get to the outpatient center and a student comes in to do the BPP which was beyondt frightening. She had the screen turned away from us so we had no idea what was going on and then after 20 minutes she bolted from the room saying she needed to get someone else to do it. A tech came in and couldn’t find the practice breathing after five minutes so we failed and had to go up to l&d because that is the only place in my frigging county that will do a NST.

While in l&d a doctor from our practice comes in and says she can’t figure out why the mfm even wanted me to do this testing in the first place since LO has been measuring perfectly on track. Then she goes over my chart to make sure she isn’t missing anything and confers with my doctor and he agrees with her but with all of the medical liability issues anymore they can’t recommend I don’t get them since the mfm thought it would be a good idea. So long story short I pass the NST with flying colors but I was warned that since I am still so early chances are that I will fail the BPP at least a few more times and end up right back in l&d once a week. LO did practice breathe but it was not for a full 30 seconds, which we found out later is common for 28/29 weeks. This is annoying on multiple levels because a)no one really knows why I am even there and I am freaking out for no real reason andd b)I am paying an ER visit for every trip to l&d which will start to add up if I am there once a week until 32 weeks which is generally when you would worry if you aren’t seeing practice breathing consistently.

I am getting a second opinion at a new mfm in NJ next Wednesday! I already love the new practice, they told me over the phone that it was ridiculous to be doing these tests so early and expecting a perfect outcome each time. They were also appalled my mfm told me he hated hyperemesis clients so I have a good feeling about this.

How far along? 27 weeks 5 days
Total weight gain/loss: -2 pounds
Maternity clothes? I am in all maternity clothes besides swimsuit bottoms!
Stretch marks? none
Sleep: Not great lately, I am not sure if its the heat in general or that I am not getting enough exercise because its too hot to walk .
Best moment this week: Finding out I passed the 3 hour test and that my moles were all benign.
Movement: YES! He is very active early in the morning and again before I go to sleep.
Food cravings: No cravings.
Gender: BOY
Labor Signs:none
What I miss: Being able to eat three meals a day without throwing up.
What I am looking forward to: Having this baby!

So let’s face it, I pretty much suck at updating anymore so I am sorry about that. A lot of changes have happened in the past few weeks so I will fill you in on what is going on. Week 20 did not go so smoothly for me, I was as sick as a dog, I saw the asshole doctor(my last post which I realize now I sugar coated big time), and we decided the best thing for me was to stay at my parents during the week so I wouldn’t be home alone all day. Your mind can go to some really not pretty places when you spend all day alone dwelling on how sick you are. My OB did refer me to see a new shrink who could get me in on the 23rd of this month….gee thanks buddy. It’s hard being up here and away from Chris four days a week but on the other hand I am in a much better place mentally so we are just going to have to tough it out until our little guy gets here since the hyperemesis has not let up at all. Can you get over that? This was my day…eat breakfast…stand up to get a muffin…puke…lay down for a few hours….eat lunch….stand up to go outside and read…puke. Who in the hell can’t move around without puking? Oh yeah that would be me. I am so over it, but clearly it is not over me yet. In the weight department I am holding steady at 136 so I did gain a few with the picc line i which is good, even though I haven’t gained any in the past few weeks. That’s where we are at, 23 weeks tomorrow!