Infertility


The quest to eat healthy at Hibachi failed miserably and the kicker was that the food wasn’t even that good. If I am going to be eating outside of my “nutrition plan” then it better damned well be excellent food! I did enjoy myself with my friends though and didn’t stress about my white rice so it was a win.

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I hopped back on the wagon for the rest of the weekend in regards to the plan. The first thing I do when I go workout is some sort of cardio and the elliptical has quickly become my favorite. When I first started going doing level 1 for 10 minutes at 3 mph was a massive stretch…who knew I was so out of shape? Now I can go at least twice as fast for 35-40 minutes on level 2. Seeing these strides in stamina really keep me going…and the mini televisions attached to the elliptical don’t hurt either.

Next up is weight training, which I was told is key to this whole low blood sugar plan. I switch between arms and legs every other day and do three reps with each exercise I am doing. I haven’t noticed a change in my legs yet but my arms look better than they have since college. I am even starting to get some definition so I am sure my legs won’t be far behind.

I would really like to plan some yoga into my days but it hasn’t worked out yet. By the time I get home from the gym all I want to do is shower and relax and if I don’t go to the gym I always find something else that needs to get done around the house first. So, we will see. Our gym just opened and said they are going to start classes soon so maybe I will be able to get my yoga in that way.

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I have to call about donating my meds sometime in the next week and cancel the rest of my nutrition appointments. I have done everything they asked of me and my cycles did not return to normal, which my mentor and doctor believe to be an indicator that your egg quality has gone up. Personally I think her cycles returned to normal not only from diet and exercise but also because she was on met, but I am not a doctor what the hell do I know. On the subject of my mentor… she never emailed me back, I emailed her twice and no response. She is pregnant so I don’t want to push it as we all know anything can happen but also wanted to get her book back to her. I might also ask the office if I can bring it in and they can send it to her.

I did read in Kellis’ blog about soy isoflavones and we are thinking about giving that a try as it is rumored to help with egg quality when taken like clomid. I am past wanting to deal with the RE but I am pretty sure we can emotionally handle this for a few months. Hell we have tried everything else, why not this?

Welcome to all of those visiting for ICLW week! I hope that you all made it over here from my old blog…looking back switching blogs earlier this week probably wasn’t the best idea I ever had!

I am Kate, my husband is Chris and after 4 years of ttc we are pretty much at the end of our unexplained ropes. Early on we tried a few clomid and clomid/IUI cycles, these resulted in a bfn, chemical pregnancy, and a missed miscarriage at 8 weeks. I also had a spontaneous pregnancy and blighted ovum miscarriage along the way. We tried IVF twice…at two clinics using two different protocols and both attempts failed to make even one decent embryo, which is interesting to say the least since I clearly have gotten pregnant a few times. They aren’t sure if my ovaries just can’t handle the heavy stims or if the allergic reactions I have to the medications are lowering my egg quality.

My doctor now has me on a good carb/no sugar/workout plan that is supposed to increase egg quality although they have nothing to back this up aside from my mentor saying it worked for her. One thing also to note about this is that I have a healthy bmi combined with good glucose and insulin levels so there truly is no evidence that my issue has to do with sugar. We found out last week that my AMH levels are in pre-menopause range, but we are right on the cusp of being normal so the doctor doesn’t think this has anything to do with our issues.

So what do we do now? I have no idea. I am still doing the nutrition/workout plan but definitely not as strict. I have no desire to do IVF again since I have no hope it will turn out differently. Doing a few more clomid cycles is on the table but I am just not sure if I have the steam for them anymore plus again I have no more faith that those will work versus us trying on our own(and my faith that will ever work is at about 3%).

Even though this is no longer a just IF blog I hope you enjoy it!

Third address change in less than a month…it’s annoying for me also. Why the change? I needed something new, peachy was a nickname given to me back in college, maybe even high school for my obvious non-peachy demeanor. Every time someone asked how I was, I would reply “peachy.” Hello sarcasm at such a young age.

If any word would describe our last few years I would say it was a storm, or more like hurricane infertility blowing through my life. I would have loved that storm to end up with us having a baby, but that just doesn’t seem to be in the cards for Chris and I. The storm is over and hopefully the calm is here to stay.

This blog will just be me trying to find balance in life as I tend to be an extremes person. You may also get my reviews on books and movies since we see so many and I am so darned opinionated. So come along on my search for happiness in this new and unfortunately childless life.