August 2010


I saw my mfm today and we had a growth u/s. He is measuring 33 weeks 5 days and is weighing in at 4 lbs 7 ounces(a month ago he was 3lbs 5 ounces). This all seems very average but he dropped on his weight curve from 40% to 26%. Ugh, I automatically start blaming myself because of the hyperemsis which isn’t helpful to anyone! She said she is not worried, at this stage there is still huge room for error in the measurements and that they will check it again in a month.

The second issue I brought up with her is a pain that I have been having for over two weeks in my upper abdomen. I asked my doctor about it last week and he said “oh, you are running out of room.” What sort of answer is that? I asked my mfm and she said right away gallbladder once she saw where the pain was. She thought it was weird I was still throwing up and said there is almost always some other explanation this far along. They are going to fax my OB orders on what she wants done and then we are going to go from there to see if it is my gallbladder and if its a stone, sludge, or if it is just irritated. Not that anything can be done this far along but it will still be nice to know what the pain is from exactly. I was told it is pretty common in pregnant women and as tactful as possible she said it was interesting my OB didn’t think to at least run some labs.

….or not. I now have pain in my upper right abdominal quadrant. Tender to the touch at times pain. Pain so intense after eating sometimes that I just don’t want to eat anymore. They think its because I am already running out of room and Jack is pushing on my stomach. It has been getting progressively worse for the past week but the OB totally blew me off yesterday. I called again today and they said well maybe its GERD but I am already on Nexium and taking Tums like a champ and its not helping so I am not buying it. I keep reading things about Gallbladder issues and that area but again they said just keep taking the Nexium and we don’t know what else to tell you. So what, am I just supposed to be in pain and not eat for the next 6 and a half weeks? FUCK. Not that I love eating now but at least the puking isn’t painful. This mother hurts, like tears in my eyes at lunch hurts. What did I eat you wonder…not even a half of a grilled chicken sandwich so its not like I pigged out on fatty food and then had the issue. I wake up in the middle of the night in pain. It’s just too much sometimes.

My fucking teeth are bothering me again and are probably going to fall out of my fucking head after I give birth. My esophagus is going to be shot to shit if it isn’t already and now I am in so much pain I don’t want to eat anything. My OB said he will see me again next Tuesday if the high risk doctor can’t give me more suggestions to try next Monday. I am so done! Sorry about all of the “fucks” I couldn’t contain myself.

How far along? 31 weeks 5 days
Total weight gain/loss: +4 pounds. Finally, a weight gain!
Maternity clothes? Most of my clothes are now maternity, although I still fit into most of my pre-pregnancy shirts and some of my “knock around” shorts.
Stretch marks? none
Sleep: Not great lately, if I wake up nauseous I am finding it harder and harder to fall back asleep.
Best moment this week: Pregnancy massage!
Movement: YES! He is very active early in the morning and again before I go to sleep.
Food cravings: Still no cravings:(
Gender: BOY
Labor Signs:none
What I miss: Being able to eat three meals a day without throwing up.
What I am looking forward to: Having this baby!